有時侯，覺得自己其實一無所有，仿佛被世界拋棄；

有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單；

有時候，走過熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉；

有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的哭不出來；

有時候，夜深人靜的時候，突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓；

有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟了 .

或许等到我忘记了，放弃了，离开了，

你才能知道，我于你而言，也是那么重要。

哭累了，沉默了，冷淡了，放弃了。

时间一过，却又是想念了。

放不下，忘不掉，戒不了，走不开。

告诉自己，让自己离开你。

告诉自己，这是最后一次哭泣。

多年前的熟悉，多年后的今天，你还是你，我还是我，一样陌生。

有时候突然就心情很低落、不想说话也不想动。

别人问起、也不知道该怎样回答。

也许是因为突然看见的一句话、

也许是看见某个物体联想到了什么、

也许是从朋友那听来的一件小事、

也许什么都不是

很多事情不需要理由 也没有理由。

是否自己已經變了、

也許是時間變了

我一直以為自己是個很堅強的人

但其實我沒有想像中的那麼堅強吧

我喜歡把淚葬在心裡

我要微笑面對任何一件突如其來的事 :) 

Saturday - Angklung Performance in Sitiawan 

Saturday morning . 

Went back to school for practice . 

Damn bored . 

Carry those super heavy instruments to the field and practice . 

Luckily not very hot jekk , 

if not I kill the teacher :p 

12pm - where the sun shines brightly on top of my head :) 

Went back to school . 

Prepared everything and wait for the bus to come . 

Slow dou sei . 

Wait dou ngo gam tired . 

Hate you lo , bus :p 

Along the journey , 

everyone was quite excited one at first . 

Slowly , dim gai everyone go to sleep ?! -.-

Ngo hou boringggg there ._. 

Arrived :) 

I shouted that we're arriving before that , 

and made everyone woke up :pp 

HAHAHAHAH . 

I know I'm bad :pp 

If haven't reach , they are going to kick me out from the bus . 

Oops . 

The place where we're going to perform is . 

Sitiawan Airport . 

This is what we call RUMORS . 

Semua orang cakap airport airport . 

Then what we see is . 

A BIG BIG FIELD . 

Lol -.- what is this -.- 

Damn hot when we went down the bus  . 

Some more carrying the super heavy instrument 

and 

wearing the super hot baju kurung . 

OMG  . * faint * -.- 

Duhhh then we wait wait wait . 

The only thing we did there was WAIT . 

Waited for few hours , 

someone said got rehearsal , 

at the end no rehearsal -.- 

Damn it . 

Played games while waiting :D 

Laugh till stomach pain again .

 hahahahahahahahha . 

We played 

- Ohm Cit Cit :p 

- Beat table :p 

 - Catch mouse :p 

- BURGER KING ! :D

The was the best moment I had yesterday . Omg . 

Dear Burger King , lei hou yea . 

Lei hai dak gea ! X) 

After performance , went home . 

Along the journey , 

it was the most horrible hours there :/ 

It seems to be so long . 

Looking at you all , so happily playing and chit chatting , 

do you think I have the right to not care about it ? 

Changed place with someone after that . 

Cause she wanna play chor dai di . 

and her place not very suitable . 

Sat with the someone .
Chatted with her :)
Maybe she sensed that I was emo ?
I don't know , or she just loves to talk ?
Hahahahaha .
She kept on asking me about the someone ,
which I don't really wanna answer ,
so i just fu hin her .
I'm sorry :)
Then along the highway , there's no roadlights .
You know what she said ?
She said :
HenHeiShiBuShi ? BuYongPa , YouWoZaiZheLi .
Lmao , really laugh like hell that time :p

She's quite a good person actually :)
Although she may not be sometimes .
I don't understand why people just likes people that looks like they're nice .

Maybe you will say ,
she's just pretending or whatever .
But at least she is better than those people .
She really gave me little bit of happiness in the bus ,
when you guys are playing happily and loudly there :') 

FINE . Just ignore me . 

Friends Forever ?

It's the biggest lie I've ever heard in this world :') 

Freaking Bored CNY .

Chor yatt , 

Went to grandma's house bai nian . 

Did nothing there -.- 

Everyone gamble gamble gamble. 

I sit there watch movie -.-

Seriously there's no cny mood this year . 

Firstly , maybe me myself doesn't have the mood . 

Secondly , cause my awesome seniors all not here dy. 

Thirdly , many homework :( 

Afternoon went friend's house . 

Played mahjongggg :P 

Yay love it :D 

Adults - chat chat chat . 

Night , makan at home .

Steamboat , cousins came :) 

But they're only less than 5 years old -.- 

I simply find something to play with them lu . 

Both of them very cute , 

but their maid is so fierce , 

macam 管家婆 ;( 

Y U C K S .

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The day after that .  

Seriously bored , nothing to do . 

Lazy to write all those freaking boring activities . 

So byebye :) 

TEE HEEE . 

Jealousy Kills :/

I'm eff-ing emo this few days. 

What kindda mood is this ? 

Horrible just before cny ?! 

I really hate being left out , being alone . 

Promises ? 

Promising that we will be forever together ?

Nothing can break the bond between us ? 

L I A R S . 

I suddenly feel that everything was just a lie . 

Stop snatching my friends away from me anymore , 

I really hate you . 

Things change , People Change . 

This is the second time .. 

That I really have this kind of feelings again , 

since two years ago . 

That's why I do not like to share my secrets with same aged people. 

I always feel that people in different age , 

no matter younger or older . 

Can understand me better . 

No matter what is happening now , 

I won't care anymore 

我会证明我一个人也可以过得很好 :) 

人生第一桶金 ! :D

My title sounds funny ! Hahahaha ! 

Why am I putting this as my title ? 

I went to work today . 

My first occupation :p 

In my life , since I was born . 

Lived for 16 years and it's the first time

 I work hard and earn my first own money ! 

I'm proud :) 

Actually it's my mum's company having launching , 

then they don't have enough people . 

So my mum asked my sisters and I to help out there . 

Our jobs are quite easy , 

but tiring ~ -.- 

Arrived at 9am . 

Walked here and there and preparing things . 

Guests started to came and Dato Bandar came around 10 I think ? 

My first thing to do , Registration . 

Just sit there , people write their info , 

I give them a free gift , lucky number .

Kinda lame yea ? -.- 

But when you sit there , 

you'll understand what is my feeling . 

Speeches ---- 

After that , have to give the Dato Bandar a souvenir . 

I'm the one going on stage and pass the souvenir , 

to the officer ( ALEH . idk who though -.- ) 

and he'll pass it to Dato Bandar . 

After I come down , 

I have to run to another place and 

get ready those scissors for them to jin choi . 

After getting back the scissors , 

have to run back to another showhouse near the stage , 

and pass him something to poke the balloon ! 

Conclusion : Kept on running for the whole session -- 

After that , 

I've just been helping out here and there . 

Giving out ice creams , going back to the registration . 

Till 1 something , 

the function ended dy . 

But still got people come after that -.- 

Argh . Hate them . 

Make me cannot finish my work earlier :( 

Hmph . 

Wait wait wait ....

Then starting to pack up . 

Packing up those chairs and things . 

I was so tired and my legs muscle are so pain ;( 

Due to yesterday's marching , punishment - running and down 10 down 20 -.- 

Walk one step , pain one step . 

Min qiong faster finish work so can go home lurh . 

Finally , everything done , went home :D 

I've only been working for 6 hours today . 

Not very long but it's not short too . 

Can you imagine people working more than this hours everyday ? 

And earn their money to continue surviving in this world ? 

OhMyGod . 

   

        

                     

3P7 - Those who I'll never forget in my life :)

Hmm who should I start first ? 

Maybe Obor ? 

She's known as the most mischievous person in my class . 

Her name is SeetZhenYi :) 

No one calls her that , she is miss obor :p 

She loves mermaid :P 

She loves using shortforms like 

ly - loveyou 

hy - hateyou 

gb - goodbye 

Hahahaha she is cute . 

She laughs loudly , and the sound is kindda funny ? XP 

She's the cutest person I've ever met :) 

 

Secondly , obor's deskmate . 

Known as Fei Luo - LohZhiSuen . 

She's my dance mate :) 

She's as cute as obor . 

Hahahahha . 

Both of them - zui gai pak dong ! :D

The second girl from the left in the picture !

Thirdly , Crystal :) 

She was my carpool mate for 10 years . 

Hahahah repeated this for soooo many times :D 

 Fourthly , Chris :) 

She ah , nothing to say much . 

Came from Cameron and she was once my deskmate :) 

Fifth , Li Yuen ! 

My deskmate in 3P7 ! 

The most untidy table mate ever ! 

OMG . Everyday , every moment , 

her table is like having war gam . 

Always using up my table's space too .

Grrrr . 

But , I miss the fun helping her to pack up . 

I miss the untidiness :( 

How I wish I can help her to tidy up things once again . 

Sixth , Pui Yui ! 

Known as P** P** .

Hahahahah she doesn't like the name :p 

Oopsssieeee . Lol . 

Changed a pair of specs and she looks like a korean mui now :p 

Seventh , Mei Mei :) 

She's very quiet when she was first in 1P7 . 

Until 3P7 , she became SUPER TALKATIVE ! 

Just like me , maybe just 20% of me lahhh :p 

HAHAHHA . 

But she really changed a lot :p 

Who asks our class love to talk so much jekk ? 

An awesome violinist and pianist ! :D 

Middle one :) 

YiWen :) 

The one who has the same sur name as me ! 

Neoh ! :DDD 

Teachers always thought that we were sisters . 

But she moved to kl this year :( 

YiHeng :) 

The Noobiak one . 

Still same class . chehhhh :p 

Soooo damn noisy . 

Everyday still shout in class and ss ! 

But the feeling is no more the same . 

People is S6 won't ss with us :( 

Unlike P7 .. 

Liao Liao :) 

Liew Hui Shan :) 

Still our classrep in S6 , LUCKILY :p

Loves her rainbow so much . Huiyo ~  

Pui San :) 

Known as LuLu . 

The one who always walk a big round to pass by S8 ;ppp 

I miss it ! :D 

Poh Sim :) 

Known as BaoBao . 

Loves her spring and autumn so damn much . 

Just like how I love winter :pp 

TAAAHAAA . 

Luckily we're in the same society , 

if not I'll die . 

Jo Yeen :) 

Known as Teng Teng . 

The one who always fetches me home :p 

HAHAHAHA . 

Not same class , 

but same society too :D 

Chia Huei :) 

Known as POPO :pp 

Hahahahahha . 

Sitting with me this year . 

Hmm gotta have lots of fun ! :D 

Although most of us are not in the same class this year , 

and even next year . 

Our friendship will never end . 

Your guys are the most awesome ones , 

EVER ! 

I promise I won't forget everything , tears and laughers for the past 3 years :')