有時侯，覺得自己其實一無所有，仿佛被世界拋棄；

有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單；

有時候，走過熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉；

有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的哭不出來；

有時候，夜深人靜的時候，突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓；

有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟了 .

或许等到我忘记了，放弃了，离开了，

你才能知道，我于你而言，也是那么重要。

哭累了，沉默了，冷淡了，放弃了。

时间一过，却又是想念了。

放不下，忘不掉，戒不了，走不开。

告诉自己，让自己离开你。

告诉自己，这是最后一次哭泣。

多年前的熟悉，多年后的今天，你还是你，我还是我，一样陌生。

有时候突然就心情很低落、不想说话也不想动。

别人问起、也不知道该怎样回答。

也许是因为突然看见的一句话、

也许是看见某个物体联想到了什么、

也许是从朋友那听来的一件小事、

也许什么都不是

很多事情不需要理由 也没有理由。

是否自己已經變了、

也許是時間變了

我一直以為自己是個很堅強的人

但其實我沒有想像中的那麼堅強吧

我喜歡把淚葬在心裡

我要微笑面對任何一件突如其來的事 :) 

Saturday - Angklung Performance in Sitiawan 

Saturday morning . 

Went back to school for practice . 

Damn bored . 

Carry those super heavy instruments to the field and practice . 

Luckily not very hot jekk , 

if not I kill the teacher :p 

12pm - where the sun shines brightly on top of my head :) 

Went back to school . 

Prepared everything and wait for the bus to come . 

Slow dou sei . 

Wait dou ngo gam tired . 

Hate you lo , bus :p 

Along the journey , 

everyone was quite excited one at first . 

Slowly , dim gai everyone go to sleep ?! -.-

Ngo hou boringggg there ._. 

Arrived :) 

I shouted that we're arriving before that , 

and made everyone woke up :pp 

HAHAHAHAH . 

I know I'm bad :pp 

If haven't reach , they are going to kick me out from the bus . 

Oops . 

The place where we're going to perform is . 

Sitiawan Airport . 

This is what we call RUMORS . 

Semua orang cakap airport airport . 

Then what we see is . 

A BIG BIG FIELD . 

Lol -.- what is this -.- 

Damn hot when we went down the bus  . 

Some more carrying the super heavy instrument 

and 

wearing the super hot baju kurung . 

OMG  . * faint * -.- 

Duhhh then we wait wait wait . 

The only thing we did there was WAIT . 

Waited for few hours , 

someone said got rehearsal , 

at the end no rehearsal -.- 

Damn it . 

Played games while waiting :D 

Laugh till stomach pain again .

 hahahahahahahahha . 

We played 

- Ohm Cit Cit :p 

- Beat table :p 

 - Catch mouse :p 

- BURGER KING ! :D

The was the best moment I had yesterday . Omg . 

Dear Burger King , lei hou yea . 

Lei hai dak gea ! X) 

After performance , went home . 

Along the journey , 

it was the most horrible hours there :/ 

It seems to be so long . 

Looking at you all , so happily playing and chit chatting , 

do you think I have the right to not care about it ? 

Changed place with someone after that . 

Cause she wanna play chor dai di . 

and her place not very suitable . 

Sat with the someone .
Chatted with her :)
Maybe she sensed that I was emo ?
I don't know , or she just loves to talk ?
Hahahahaha .
She kept on asking me about the someone ,
which I don't really wanna answer ,
so i just fu hin her .
I'm sorry :)
Then along the highway , there's no roadlights .
You know what she said ?
She said :
HenHeiShiBuShi ? BuYongPa , YouWoZaiZheLi .
Lmao , really laugh like hell that time :p

She's quite a good person actually :)
Although she may not be sometimes .
I don't understand why people just likes people that looks like they're nice .

Maybe you will say ,
she's just pretending or whatever .
But at least she is better than those people .
She really gave me little bit of happiness in the bus ,
when you guys are playing happily and loudly there :') 

FINE . Just ignore me . 

Friends Forever ?

It's the biggest lie I've ever heard in this world :') 

Freaking Bored CNY .

Chor yatt , 

Went to grandma's house bai nian . 

Did nothing there -.- 

Everyone gamble gamble gamble. 

I sit there watch movie -.-

Seriously there's no cny mood this year . 

Firstly , maybe me myself doesn't have the mood . 

Secondly , cause my awesome seniors all not here dy. 

Thirdly , many homework :( 

Afternoon went friend's house . 

Played mahjongggg :P 

Yay love it :D 

Adults - chat chat chat . 

Night , makan at home .

Steamboat , cousins came :) 

But they're only less than 5 years old -.- 

I simply find something to play with them lu . 

Both of them very cute , 

but their maid is so fierce , 

macam 管家婆 ;( 

Y U C K S .

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The day after that .  

Seriously bored , nothing to do . 

Lazy to write all those freaking boring activities . 

So byebye :) 

TEE HEEE . 

Jealousy Kills :/

I'm eff-ing emo this few days. 

What kindda mood is this ? 

Horrible just before cny ?! 

I really hate being left out , being alone . 

Promises ? 

Promising that we will be forever together ?

Nothing can break the bond between us ? 

L I A R S . 

I suddenly feel that everything was just a lie . 

Stop snatching my friends away from me anymore , 

I really hate you . 

Things change , People Change . 

This is the second time .. 

That I really have this kind of feelings again , 

since two years ago . 

That's why I do not like to share my secrets with same aged people. 

I always feel that people in different age , 

no matter younger or older . 

Can understand me better . 

No matter what is happening now , 

I won't care anymore 

我会证明我一个人也可以过得很好 :) 

人生第一桶金 ! :D

My title sounds funny ! Hahahaha ! 

Why am I putting this as my title ? 

I went to work today . 

My first occupation :p 

In my life , since I was born . 

Lived for 16 years and it's the first time

 I work hard and earn my first own money ! 

I'm proud :) 

Actually it's my mum's company having launching , 

then they don't have enough people . 

So my mum asked my sisters and I to help out there . 

Our jobs are quite easy , 

but tiring ~ -.- 

Arrived at 9am . 

Walked here and there and preparing things . 

Guests started to came and Dato Bandar came around 10 I think ? 

My first thing to do , Registration . 

Just sit there , people write their info , 

I give them a free gift , lucky number .

Kinda lame yea ? -.- 

But when you sit there , 

you'll understand what is my feeling . 

Speeches ---- 

After that , have to give the Dato Bandar a souvenir . 

I'm the one going on stage and pass the souvenir , 

to the officer ( ALEH . idk who though -.- ) 

and he'll pass it to Dato Bandar . 

After I come down , 

I have to run to another place and 

get ready those scissors for them to jin choi . 

After getting back the scissors , 

have to run back to another showhouse near the stage , 

and pass him something to poke the balloon ! 

Conclusion : Kept on running for the whole session -- 

After that , 

I've just been helping out here and there . 

Giving out ice creams , going back to the registration . 

Till 1 something , 

the function ended dy . 

But still got people come after that -.- 

Argh . Hate them . 

Make me cannot finish my work earlier :( 

Hmph . 

Wait wait wait ....

Then starting to pack up . 

Packing up those chairs and things . 

I was so tired and my legs muscle are so pain ;( 

Due to yesterday's marching , punishment - running and down 10 down 20 -.- 

Walk one step , pain one step . 

Min qiong faster finish work so can go home lurh . 

Finally , everything done , went home :D 

I've only been working for 6 hours today . 

Not very long but it's not short too . 

Can you imagine people working more than this hours everyday ? 

And earn their money to continue surviving in this world ? 

OhMyGod . 

   

        

                     

3P7 - Those who I'll never forget in my life :)

Hmm who should I start first ? 

Maybe Obor ? 

She's known as the most mischievous person in my class . 

Her name is SeetZhenYi :) 

No one calls her that , she is miss obor :p 

She loves mermaid :P 

She loves using shortforms like 

ly - loveyou 

hy - hateyou 

gb - goodbye 

Hahahaha she is cute . 

She laughs loudly , and the sound is kindda funny ? XP 

She's the cutest person I've ever met :) 

 

Secondly , obor's deskmate . 

Known as Fei Luo - LohZhiSuen . 

She's my dance mate :) 

She's as cute as obor . 

Hahahahha . 

Both of them - zui gai pak dong ! :D

The second girl from the left in the picture !

Thirdly , Crystal :) 

She was my carpool mate for 10 years . 

Hahahah repeated this for soooo many times :D 

 Fourthly , Chris :) 

She ah , nothing to say much . 

Came from Cameron and she was once my deskmate :) 

Fifth , Li Yuen ! 

My deskmate in 3P7 ! 

The most untidy table mate ever ! 

OMG . Everyday , every moment , 

her table is like having war gam . 

Always using up my table's space too .

Grrrr . 

But , I miss the fun helping her to pack up . 

I miss the untidiness :( 

How I wish I can help her to tidy up things once again . 

Sixth , Pui Yui ! 

Known as P** P** .

Hahahahah she doesn't like the name :p 

Oopsssieeee . Lol . 

Changed a pair of specs and she looks like a korean mui now :p 

Seventh , Mei Mei :) 

She's very quiet when she was first in 1P7 . 

Until 3P7 , she became SUPER TALKATIVE ! 

Just like me , maybe just 20% of me lahhh :p 

HAHAHHA . 

But she really changed a lot :p 

Who asks our class love to talk so much jekk ? 

An awesome violinist and pianist ! :D 

Middle one :) 

YiWen :) 

The one who has the same sur name as me ! 

Neoh ! :DDD 

Teachers always thought that we were sisters . 

But she moved to kl this year :( 

YiHeng :) 

The Noobiak one . 

Still same class . chehhhh :p 

Soooo damn noisy . 

Everyday still shout in class and ss ! 

But the feeling is no more the same . 

People is S6 won't ss with us :( 

Unlike P7 .. 

Liao Liao :) 

Liew Hui Shan :) 

Still our classrep in S6 , LUCKILY :p

Loves her rainbow so much . Huiyo ~  

Pui San :) 

Known as LuLu . 

The one who always walk a big round to pass by S8 ;ppp 

I miss it ! :D 

Poh Sim :) 

Known as BaoBao . 

Loves her spring and autumn so damn much . 

Just like how I love winter :pp 

TAAAHAAA . 

Luckily we're in the same society , 

if not I'll die . 

Jo Yeen :) 

Known as Teng Teng . 

The one who always fetches me home :p 

HAHAHAHA . 

Not same class , 

but same society too :D 

Chia Huei :) 

Known as POPO :pp 

Hahahahahha . 

Sitting with me this year . 

Hmm gotta have lots of fun ! :D 

Although most of us are not in the same class this year , 

and even next year . 

Our friendship will never end . 

Your guys are the most awesome ones , 

EVER ! 

I promise I won't forget everything , tears and laughers for the past 3 years :') 

 

3P7 - Memories Forever (':

Didn't update my blog for a week . 

I really miss my friends , 1P7 till 3P7 . 

Staying in the new class - 4S6 

It's only the first week ..

and pressure is all around dy !

Those people there studies very hard . 

90% from P8 to P10 . 

I think I'm getting the last place in the class ): 

1P7 . 

The place where P7ians met :) 

I miss it . 

Puan Suhaily , our class teacher . 

I miss her . 

She also changed school after she taught us . 

2P7 . 

LowYiLing left :( 

Puan Chong Poh Keng was our class teacher . 

The time we started to build up our love ! 

Our friendship ! Our cooperation ! 

3P7 . 

We fought hard together for PMR !

We took results together . 

We took alot of pictures . 

We know that we're going to leave each other soon . 

It's our last year . 

But everyone of us believe , 

There can be MIRACLES . 

Form 4 . 

They finally separated us . 

Yiwen left :( 

All of us cried . 

We know our friendship will continue no matter what . 

And I believe we're stay together forever . 

Our love bond that will never be broken ! 

4S6 . 

Teachers super not good ! ;( 

I cannot shout . 

I cannot talk loudly . 

I cannot play a fool on my friends . 

I cannot gossip about fake people in a gang . 

I cannot sleep in class . 

I cannot eat in class . 

There's so many prefects in my class , 

all netball members are in my class ! 

I don't wanna study and be a nerd , a noob or whatever ! :@

I really don't like it ): 

3P7 . 

The best class ever . 

We can shout . 

We can talk loudy ! 

We can laugh like a mad woman ! 

We can have 'meetings' behind the class , in a circle , 

when teacher is absent .

We can eat in class , 

cause there's only BaoBao and PekYan as the prefects :p 

We have million of nicknames ! 

We have our own codes .. 

So no one can ever understand what are we talking about ! Haha . 

We can do anything we want . 

I miss the days . I love the moments . 

I love the moments we went through everything together , 

no matter happy sad or angry :') 

I miss 3P7 , I love 3P7 ! 

2012 . 

Boring , busy lifestyle . 

Everyday school , tuition , stayback , homework ): 

No more seniors for me to stalk . 

No more 5S8 , that I loved so much . 

2011 . 

Awesome lifestyle ! 

Everyday having fun ! 

Fun times even though it's PMR YEAR ! 

So many admirers :p 

I love them , I miss them . 

5S8 was still there . 

They were still there . 

I always walk in and chat with them . 

The awesome 5S8 ever ! :'D 

Life goes on . 

Whatever it is , You can't change anymore . 

Believe in yourself , just accept and move on . 

Don't stop or you'll never success . 

But .. can I continue moving without you all ? 

I don't know . 

No more passion , no more love as my motivation . 

It's impossible :( 

What if 2012 just ended like that ? 

I'm gonna pass through these few months , 

with emo-ness and no laughters ?! 

I don't wanna die yet . 

I will regret dying like that if I'm not spending my last year with 3P7 ! :((( 

Taahaaa . And the photo above will be like us . 

We're still be friends until we have no more teeth :p 

TEEHEE :DD

      

Guess who's birthday is today ? 

HAHAHAHAHA . 

  

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Senior Lim Zhi Rou <3 :p 

I know her since 2009 , she was still a member . 

She's form 3 and I'm only Form 1 :) 

Our first met was unpredictable . 

We knew each other through msn ! 

Hahahahaa . 

She taught me bed making there . 

She explained and even drew out the bed and linens :D 

How awesome is she ! :p 

Then in 2010 , 

she was my faci in the Interschool Competition . 

She taught me alot of things . 

We always chit chat instead of training every time we go early for TRAINING . 

Hahaha but when we see her coming from far with Senior Kho , 

everyone will jump up and pretend that we're having training . 

HEHEHE . 

When she leaves , sometimes , 

we'll just pack up :P 

Wey but this is sometimes only  . 

I do my training very serious one kay :p 

Later that , 

St John Annual Training Camp 2010 :D 

She was once again , 

FACI OF MY GROUP ! 

Hahahaha oopsssss ;p 

We always have group meetings before school starts . 

And I always peep her cause she'll be discussing together :$ 

Ngek ngek . 

During camp , we'd lots of fun . 

Although she wasn't always with us , cause she's one of the Quarter Mistress . 

At least she's the same group as me :p BLEK . 

And last year , 

I'm already Form 3 and she's Form 5 . 

We can meet each other everyday :) 

I was so excited ! 

Starting of the year , January . 

Her class was BESIDE my class ! 

OMG . This is soooo awesome . 

Means I just walk out from my class then can stalk her dy . 

HAHAHAHHA . 

Hmm but then , her class changed back to upstairs at March if I'm not mistaken :( 

However , 

I still have MY WAYS to stalk her . 

NENINENIBUBU :PP 

Everytime going and coming back Science Lab , 

surely I'll take a longer way , the further stairs and walk a longer journey , 

just to pass by her class .

AHAHA . Who cares ? I just wanna see her :p 

When her class is having Bio / Physics / Chemi , 

( I memorize their time table :P ) 

 I'll be shouting when I see one / two of their classmates passing by my class ! 

Taahaaa . :PP 

It's because whole world knows I admire her kay -.- 

Recess time , 

I know where she sits , 

I'll be stalking her from the minute the bell rings till the last bell rings . 

HAHAHAHAH . 

I know I'm horrible :pp 

After middle year  , 

I was very suk with her classmates . 

All of them knows I admire her too :p 

Then I always jia jia sneak in her class and chat with her friends , 

sun bin can look at her mahhhh . 

HAHAHA . her friends yao so sayang me . 

Always ask me to go in and chit chat . 

Huiyoo ~~ :PPP 

She's awesome , just the way she is . 

I love her :) 

I really had alot of fun last year . 

Knowing alot of people , from different characters and styles . 

I love them , those who really changed my life (': 

Busy Like Hell :/

GRRRRRR . 

Gonna be like ,

 SUPER BUSY these two days :@ 

Nehhh , that noob angklung club ! :/ 

Makes me hate school . Hmph . 

Schedule for Friday and Saturday : 

Friday 

Morning : School , listening to those speeches . 

12 something starts angklung practices till 1.40pm . 

2pm choir practice till 3.30pm . 

5pm : GO BACK TO SCHOOL . 

Prepare those angklungs and going to Golf Club at 5.30pm .  

7pm only start that St John function -.-

Maybe till 10pm something timm . 

We're the last to perform -.- 

Go there damn early . AIKS . 

Whole day , FULL ! 

* Actually night got tuition de lor , but have to perform so not going ://

 I wanna go tuition !!! FIRST DAY AH !!! 

STUPID :((( 

Saturday : 

Morning : 815am have to arrive HQ till 1130am . 

Go home . 

Afternoon , around 2pm : ROADSHOW . 

Performing for angklung and choir . 

Don't know if I'm going Steven tuition at 4.30pm or not . 

Scared I'll be sleeping or faint there -.- 

Look at those horrible activities on the first week of school ! :O 

I think I'll be like DEAD in the coming few MONTHS . 

Ishhhhhhh . Okay . 

That's all . I hate ang***** :p 

I'm gonna quit this soon ! 

Just wait ;) 

I'm busy . Those fake people , I have no time for you . 

DON'T DISTURB ! IF NOT , 

RAWRRRRRRRRRRR ! ;@ 

Happy New Year :)

Hello People :) 

I've not been touching my laptop for one year :p 

Since 10pm yesterday till now ! 

Wow . Do YOU GET IT ? 

Hahahahahaha ! :D 

I had a great night in Nicole's house yesterday. 

She's so cute . 

We shared a bed , A SINGLE BED ! 

Ohhh . How thin are we . EHEHE . 

Chit chat for hours before 2012 . 

She was the last person I talked to LAST YEAR :O 

We waited , chatted , played cards , listened to songs .. 

till 0000 !

Actually it was just 12:59 

then we don't have Miao Zhen . 

So we just stared at our phones and 

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! :D 

We hugged and wished each other :) 

Then , we went to her room . 

I was soooooo sleepy -.- 

But she's not -.- 

So she took out A LOT OF PHOTOS 

and let me see ... 

see ... 

see ...

see dou ngo semakin sleepy -.- 

About 1am , finally switched off lights ! Yay :D 

The problem is . 

When the lights were switched off , 

I'm not sleepy dy -.- 

Tired , but don't feel like sleeping . wth . 

So , we chat chat chat chat chat FOR HOURS . 

Talked about many people . 

Quite awesome actually . 

Ah I missed it . 

Then don't know how , 

we slept :p 

Morning , woke up . 

Called Yiheng and Youheng to come to Nicole's house . 

So fast , they came . 

Then we played MAHJONG ! 

Whee ~ Then it gets boring . 

So we played Monopoly Deal instead . 

HEHEHE . 

Late afternoon , 

It rained . 

Everyone gets sleepy -.- 

They went home and we went up ;) 

I just wanna sleep ........

But suddenly she said . 

let's go play TETRIS ! 

I jumped up and ran to her computer . 

hahahahaha ! 

But it's quite lag . 

Then she kept on saying I'm very geng . 

I know that , right ? :pp 

EHEHE . 

Then , mum came . 

Balik kampung :D 

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2011 . 

It's really a great year :) 

I knew many different people . 

Seniors , Juniors or even Friends :) 

They made my life colourful . 

JoErn , Cute Popo (: 

I love texting with her . 

I tell her everything , everything . 

I can't imagine how I'm gonna be without her . 

Leaving next Saturday . 

All the best and take care ! 

I really had alot of fun in this year ! 

Seriously , can we go back to 2011 ? 

I don't want 2012 . 

They won't be here , 

life wouldn't be not happy anymore ): 

2012 . 

I hope you'll sang sang seng seng . 

Mou liu si dou fei . 

Don't make me hate you . 

I love you okay :) 

I hope .. 

3P7'11 will stay together , ever and ever . 

Never being seperated . 

I'm scared :/ 

Once Again , HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 

HAPPY 2012 :D